Do I believe in Destiny? After the last two days, I don't seem to be having a choice. I've never, I repeat NEVER, felt so completely useless and bored in my entire life.. not even when I was jobless.. sitting at home and measuring the frequency of HMR (HBO movie repeats) sitting in the same position in my sofa day in and day out... I've spent 17 hours at my desk and my total throughput would be 0.00082 man-hours. Jeez... If google gets a penny everytime I go to their site, they must have been millionaires by now.... "what do people do when they get so bored", "why do I feel like this", "please tell me something"... are just samples of how hopeless my queries could get. Seems like I've seen it all.. How spiritual sex between Shiva and parvathi is gonna make us feel physically better ( Iam not an atheist.. but isn't this going a little too far!)... How there have been misinterpretations about pontius pillate in the bible just to appease the romans... Movie sites ... modern art galleries... and yeah, the phenomenal women's space (Don't mistake it to be a pornography site. It was this one that was talking of emancipating women from the vices of the society... Let the faith be with you. Amen!) ... Ooomph! The best thing about getting completely screwed is things just can't get worse. :(
And after all this, there still doesn't seem to be a glimmer of hope.. I seem to have found a midas touch over the weekend. Any button I click sends back a flurrry of errors and then the system fails to respond.. I don't know why Iam reminded of this anectode right now... But goes like this, "My friend was a born writer... ever since his childhood, he wanted to write articles that evoke extreme sentiments, stuff that gets people wild, desparate, hopeless and even drives them to Suicide.. recently he mailed me that he's doing just that... He's writing help pages for microsoft these days!"
Now I see where Iam heading to... I had an amazing diwali. The best I've had in years! I was at office from 9-7 doing nothing, went back home.. boiled some noodles and had them for a delicious dinner ... saw Devdas for 'god-knows-how-many'-nth time.. and from what my roommates who came back after a party tell me, I seemed to have been talking of Squares and rectangles (that's the only thing they were able to understand) in the last few minutes of the day! How so wonderfully romantic does this sound!
And to cap it all is the fact that ... it was my choice :) And now, I shall invent stories as to why I didn't go. And so goes the saga of life, to be caught, lost and caught again.. there are just two states.. you are caught with something or lost without anything :)  ¶ 8:18 AM